#1 In The Closet

The above photograph was kinda inspired by a poem (thing) I wrote on July 23, 2010

*the following has been censored

Darkness... That's all I see. That's all anybody can see in this **** place! I sit down here, on the floor, with the clothes that have fallen off their hangers. I listen to the people outside of this place and long to be with them. To be free. To not have to hide anymore. What that must be like.....to be free... I don't remember what it was like. I've been in this place since November. Ever since I figured it out. At first I denied it. But I learned to accept it and for awhile I was on the outside, happy. But then I heard them.....I heard their hateful jeers. I saw the rights of people like me ripped away in the name of god. I've been forced into this ******* place!! By my fellow man! And why? Because I'm different! Because I was born this way!! Their angry words, hate and judgment flew at me like darts and the only place I could hide was in here. I can't be hurt in here... hidden from the world. But it does hurt me! Why have you forced me into this ****** place?! Why would you do this to your fellow man?! Am I such a threat to you?! Does my happiness and who I love really affect your ******* life?! It doesn't! You just hate me! You hate us! So thank you! Thank you for making us hide in fear! Cowering in our own closets! No more! I will stand up! I will break out of this place! And when I do I WILL get my rights!! For I am tired of cowering!! I stand up now and you can not put me back down!!

I really hope I don't get in trouble for posting that poem.... Anyway on to talking about the photo!

So as you can see this is the same picture as my test shot with a few differences. First, I took the words out using the clone stamp tool. But since it's not a perfect fix it made the color on the door look a little weird so I decided to soften the picture and then I used lighting affects.

In the picture it shows me coming out of a door which represents the "closet" that people hide in to avoid being judged. I hope that people will see this picture and try to understand how much pain their hate really causes people. It's really no wonder why all these homosexual people are committing suicide. Peoples hate drives them to that point!! This is a huge problem and it has to stop!!

After I finished editing this picture I realized that it has a really dark feeling to it and I think this is going to really effect my series. I also realized that the 5 or 6 ideas I have for upcoming photos are really dark. I'm sure these upcoming images are really going to make people think and maybe even depress some people a bit.

I hope you enjoyed the picture and poem

Bye

P.S. Ms. Miles has suggested that I also start posting real news articles that go with my pictures or has something to do with it. I think that is a great idea so I will be posting links if not the article itself with my pictures. Since the theme for this picture is being in the closet I have found an article about a homophobic scientist's son coming out of the closet. Enjoy :)

http://gayrights.change.org/blog/view/son_of_anti-gay_professor_comes_out_of_the_closet